There are vital
Ulcers. Livid lacerations
Lace my heart.
Not scars.
No scabs can ever form
Calcified granulomas
These are solar lesions
Focal deficits of visceral
Emotions.
Inadequately expressed.
My tender windows of hope
Opportunities to love
Meet and meld
Melt upon the windowsills
Dissipate into the wide rind
Of a heartless tender sky.
Amendments never made.
I always pleaded the fifth
To myself.
Waiting for
Tomorrow.
The Godot of my ghettoes
Of despair.
I remain fascinated
Still
Comatose.
And recall
Vishnu’s smile seeping
From my framed
Worldview.
How I grasped my tender pain
Like straws
Always drawing the short ones.
Gasped my absolution
Into his conchshell ear
Necessity the mother
Of my inventive spirituality.
With a lovely garland of
Snow white flowers, pristine
My heart trembling oceans
Leaking from his all encompassing eyes.
This brittle heart
Still raw.
Blazing driftwood
Malignant
Wondering
Whence shall mercy flow
Or start?
Amrita Valan is from India, mother of two boys. She holds a master’s degree in English literature. She has worked in several BPOs, in American health insurance and British motor insurance, a content creator (Deductive Logic and Reasoning in English, simulated questions for MBA Aspirants), and a receptionist at a five-star hotel.