Now I am weak and weary
I submit to all sinister shadows
Who like demons descended on me
To wring out my verve and worth
Whenever I dared to chase my dream
My angels betrayed me in my battle
And devils did their job fully
Leaving me to only loss and lament
Crestfallen and cut deep insides
My heart sobs at lingering loss
How heartless was the pen of fate
Floundering and failing me
Whenever I ventured to get the guerdon
That belonged to me
Lifelong endeavors ended in heartaches
Now dumb and defeatist
I pore over the pages of poetry
To soften my sinking heart
I pretend to be a child for a moment
Playing with little ones in the twilight
I sink away in momentary solitude
Talking with walls enclosing me
Nothing salves my pain for good
Phantoms of sickening sorrows
Keep pricking my heart without pause